TELL ME THAT SCHOOL ISN’T HARD
I KNOW YOU’RE GROWN UP
I KNOW YOU ARE MY PARENT
I KNOW YOU’VE ALREADY BEEN THROUGH THIS PART OF LIFE
BUT SCHOOL HAS GOTTEN HARDER
AND TEACHERS ARE UNFAIR TO ME AND ASSIGN TOO MUCH
AND THEY DON’T UNDERSTAND THAT WHEN I AM TIRED
I CANNOT DO WORK
I CANNOT SUCCEED ON A TEST
I CANNOT FUNCTION
This needs to be more known to parents
so I’m starting to get extremely more and more pissed off at the education system I’ve been through my entire life.
I just checked my grades for Art History II (a horrible class, really) and, on a paper I thought I’d done a good job on, I got a 68.
In this class, we have 7 modules with problems at the end of each over which you write a paper of some sort. You only have to do 4, and they only take the first 4 grades that you’ve done, not the highest scores if you did them all.
So this grade might stand, and the thought of that made me immedately start crying.
My whole life I’ve been stressing out about getting good grades, and feeling worthless if I don’t succeed, and that’s what I felt almost immediately. I felt worthless, even though writing and history are FAR from my main priority and nothing related to what I want to do or my major.
But even though it wasn’t my main priority, it still made me feel unsuccessful and worthless. and it’s been the same way my entire life.
I know, for sure, that I’m not the only one in this position. Others feel the same, and it’s in the way we were raised throughout our schooling, with the mindset that grades determine our worth as a person and if they’re low, you’re worthless. I can’t BELIEVE this mindset stuck with me so hard, and I’m crying over a college course that’s really just a poorly-created and poorly-taught course.
there are a lot of things wrong with education today, and this is just one little thing, but holy shit it’s got me thinking.
i wonder if teachers ever look at a student and think “this is one of those anime nerds”
i want to kiss you and take cute pictures with you and go on stupid dates but I also want kill you for making me feel things